Thursday, December 17, 2009

back to square 1

I'm really havin' some trouble, and it's called

what in the world do I want to do with my life and how will I know what I'll love if I've never lived in the real world actually doing real things?

Here's a little background. My major is print journalism. Well, almost. I was planning on applying to the program in the next couple weeks. Today I realized I'm quite unsure about that decision, and here are the issues that are making me rethink it.

{1} Two of my seven finals were from my journalism classes, and I'm pretty sure I didn't do well on either of them. {2} I didn't enjoy either class the entire semester. {3} I don't feel like I'm like the other journalism kids--they all have practically been reading the newspaper since they could walk {their words, not mine} and until 2 months ago, I hated the newspaper. {4} Every time I think about being a reporter and working under the deadlines and pressure, my hands get all clammy.

I had these hangups last year too. And all summer now that I think about it...I thought I figured out something that I would love. I feel like I'm bushwhacking, trying to find my path, the way to my future. This was a little side trail that I explored, but I don't think it's the right one.

So what now?

Start from square one again. {Well, maybe I'll call it square two to make myself feel better and since I have one less option on the list.} I've opened my mind to lots of ideas, so here's a few: high school English, visual arts, or history teaching; global studies; travel and tourism; and editing.

What's the secret in discovering that one thing I would love doing for the rest of my life?

2 comments:

Rachel said...

The scary and exciting thing is that there probably is no one thing that you will want to do for the rest of your life, career wise at least. So find something you're good at and that doesn't drive you crazy and that you can immerse yourself in for the next however long and go for it. And if what you pick doesn't work out, that's ok. Then you can find something else and run with it. Rob didn't find what he wanted until he was 27 and even then it keeps evolving. (Not that I recommend following in his shoes. The amount of schooling he has is getting a bit ridiculous) Just saying that you don't have to get it right right now.

Melissa said...

aw man! I am lucky that I didn't have this problem... I just majored in what I was good at, which was math. What are you good at? I would start there. If you are good at everything, well there's your problem! What about a major that would lead you to some kind of graduate program? Vet school? Med or PA school? I kind of picture you going into something like that... but yeah, you would do almost anything well. I think that may be your issue. :)